Actually, my mother can tell you that I've been saying that I wanted to be an Artist since I was four years old. It's one of those few childhood memory snippets that I still remember. I also remember thinking I didn't know how the hell I was going to make that happen outside of school.
self-portrait 1997 copyright Erin Howk
Oh, I put my degree to use. I worked JOBS in the arts, but somehow it isn't quite the same. So, I changed careers and put the actual making of physical pieces of art on hiatus. I needed to do it for a couple of reasons. One I was struggling with a culturally implanted conception of what it meant to be an artist. You stayed at home working your butt off wearing dirty clothes and smelling of garlic and cigarettes for little return until you hit your big break. That doesn't sound very fun, and I didn't have much passion for that type of lifestyle. Oh, I like garlic, but I don't smoke and I wash my clothes regularly.
What was I to do? Give up the artist moniker and embrace my new MT one? I tried that for a while, but I just felt a little empty and incomplete.
Then I decided, well if I'm not making art, I certainly need to be a Patron of the Arts! I'll collect! I'll support! I'll find room somewhere in this closet to store all of the stuff I buy! I will, I swear! I have to say this helped for a while. I have some beautiful pottery at home. Including some from this artist.
After a while I felt I was letting my 4 year old self down. I TOLD people I was going to be an artist! I have to live up to my word!
I kind of forgot about it for awhile, running my business took priority. I started reading more blogs by what I considered creative people and artists. I came to the conclusion that it isn't the collections, the portfolios, or the gallery showings that make a person an artist, not completely. It has a lot to do with your approach to life. Your mind is a creative mind, in that it creates things out of seemingly nothing and changes the perspective of their world. This is done through writing, drawing, photography, cooking, speaking, singing, laughing, hugging, massaging, and healing.
Here I was limiting my soul to a path that is decidedly the antithesis of what it means to be an artist. A pre-defined, static path is for Math! Sheesh.
I hope to look down from heaven and view my life path as a beautiful intricate drawing. One with turns and surprises. One with layers and meaning beyond even my understanding. That is what it is to be an artist.
Which is awesome for my closet.
Art Inspiring Blogs That I Read:
Accidental Mysteries I love this blog. It does all the work for me. The author searches the internet and other collections for interesting artistic interactions with the world. Sometimes it is just your artist mind that sees the creative process in the objects, sometimes its a feature on an honest to goodness working artist (aka, not a lazy one like me).
Lobster and Swan This website is so beautiful. Not every post is art. Sometimes it is what the author is eating that day, or inspirations she sees in a magazine. She is also an etsy seller, and I have purchased and item or two from her. Handcrafted and easy to own. What could be better!
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